Sometimes a door gets shut right in your face. It hurts. You cry out to God in desperation. He hears your cries for help. A multitude of people begin to lift you up in prayer. Meanwhile God is smiling because He has plans that will blow your mind. That door that closed will never open again, but God invites you to another one. This door is huge. Twice as big as the last. As He opens it for you, your jaw drops.
My husband got laid off a little over two weeks ago. It was around ten in the morning on a Thursday, and I came out of the bathroom to see him sitting on our bed holding our daughter. I immediately knew something was wrong.
“They laid me off.” He said.
I remember just staring at him wondering if this was real life or if I was still dreaming. You guys, I was 35 weeks pregnant and we no longer had health insurance or any income. It was scary. I had to excuse myself and cried my eyes out in the bathroom that morning. I kept asking God, “Why? Why now? Are you kidding me?”
We reached out to friends, family, and our church the next day. I signed up for WIC and medical assistance, and Isaac reluctantly signed up for unemployment. Then we looked at our finances and things were not adding up.
We had enough in our emergency savings for one month’s mortgage payment. But we kept getting bills from different hospitals, physicians, and clinics for all the times we had been to the ER. On top of that our student loans were just a couple hundred dollars shy of our mortgage payment.
I was afraid. I was thinking of the worse case scenario where we lose the house, have to declare bankruptcy, and live on the streets.
Then, the contractions came on due to all the stress. While I layed in bed breathing through the pain, I looked over at my dresser. There were bible verses stuck to my mirror that I had been memorizing.
“I wait for the Lord , my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope.” -Psalm 130:5
That verse told me point blank what my job was in this situation. God did not want me to worry while we were waiting to see what would happen next. Instead, He wanted me to place my hope and trust in the promises he declared for me in His word.
“Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.” -Psalm 143:10
This became our prayer. We needed direction, and it was clear to us that God was the only one capable of leading us from a steep and rocky hill back onto level ground. Surrendering your will to align with God’s is difficult. It is not easy to let go of control, especially when the path you were on takes a sudden turn.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” -Romans 8:28
What a wonderful promise there is in that verse! We held onto this assurance and kept believing that the Lord would take our bad situation and turn it into something good. We believed and could see God working miracles in our hearts and in our relationships. More than anything this experience taught me what really matters most. I learned to appreciate the simple things. I became more grateful for the wonderful family the Lord had blessed me with. I also realized how blessed we were to have so many encouraging friends and an amazing church family. I could not count the number of people who were praying for us, and we could feel those prayers. Our hearts found peace; the kind of peace that surpasses all understanding. Even though we did not know what our future looked like, we knew that God would always take care of us.
“Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”” -Matthew 19:26
This verse blew my mind. As we looked at our finances and things looked bleak, I realized how much we had unknowingly put our trust in humans.
We put our trust in man-made things.
We put our trust in a company for our provision.
Then they ripped the rug from under our feet, and it all seemed impossible.
But this verse tells me that with God ALL things are possible. So placing my trust in Him for our provision gave me hope.
After a couple of days, Isaac got an interview. And then another, and then another. Recruiters were lining up to see His resume. Then about a week ago, a company asked him what they could do to get him on board with their team. They were practically bending over backwards to get him to take the job.
Wednesday of last week they officially offered him the job. He starts today, and they are even giving him time off when this baby comes (which could be any day now). This position is better than his previous one, and we are floored at how quickly God worked this out!
Does it always work this way? No. There are times when things do not happen and we get stuck waiting and waiting. If you are in that stage of life, please know that God is there for you in the waiting. The lack of results that you are waiting for is not an indication that the Lord has deserted you. I’m not claiming to know why God lets these kinds of things happen to us, but I know that ultimately there is a reason. Maybe it’s a time for growth. Maybe it’s time for a wake-up call. Whatever the reason, don’t give up hope. Though your situation may never change, God is ready to bring you peace.
The funny thing is that God had been preparing me for this. In the beginning of January, I asked God to give me a word for this year.
The word was:
I had no idea the lengths I would travel to trust in Him completely. I do trust Him, now more than ever before.
Tune in next week as we continue this series about Trusting God by sharing a guest post.